Sunday, December 18, 2011

Thank You For Being There

My heartfelt and sincere thank yous to all of you who have greeted me and sent comfort on the Admiral's page and my Wall these past several days.  Friendship, love and caring are like a salve on an open wound.  It helps stop some of the bleeding.

Some folks who don't have pets or dislike a kind of pet or worse don't love their pet as a family member can't and won't understand what a crushing blow this is.  I know the pain will fade in time.  It faded when Robin flew away 16 years ago.  One day I will not feel the sharp pain as much.  But until that time comes, oh, I am so sad.  Just so so so sad.

Last night I rose suddenly from the office chair which for once wasn't occupied by you-know-who and called to her out loud as I reached the hallway, "I'm coming to feed ya, Baby.  Sorry I'm a little late!" and the words died in my mouth as I realized I was talking to the thin air.  It's habit.  I know..it will lessen.

God bless all of you and thank you for yourselves.  What a priceless gift to ME!




30 comments:

  1. Breaks my heart to how simple habits have to be unlearned.
    I completely understand.
    You are right as time goes forward, the intense sadness will fade, and the glow of the special bond will remain eternal.
    Xoxox

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  2. Oh Sis I have had that same feeling and know how very hard it is to live with. The empty is just too much sometimes. I am sitting right there next to you anytime you need me, think of me and I will give you a hug and help ease the pain. Love ya
    SIS XXOO

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  3. So wish there was something we could do to take the pain away and ease your loss. We hope you will have young smiling faces around you for Christmas.

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  4. Carole I am so sorry for your loss and your pain.Thinking of you. Dianne

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  5. It can be so hard - I remember after Tigger crossed the Bridge, I found Butterscotch sleeping in "Tigg's" spot and freaked out.... but it will get better....

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  6. I wish that each tear shed by others for your beloved Admiral will lesson the pain in your heart.

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  7. I remember the first morning I woke up without Mica my heart literally swelled with pain as soon as my feet touched the floor...
    Only time helps it slowly.
    I understand completely...

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  8. Eventually we grow accustomed to the absence, though we never "get over" the loss. I recall reading that quite some months ago on another blog (a comment on another passing). It's all too true.

    (((Hugs)))

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  9. I love what Daisy said...and my therapist once told me...'If everyone who loves you, thinks of you just once a day, then you will always be on someone's mind'...and that is a comfort at a time of loss of a dear friend like now...

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  10. Some very special people commenting on here. It's so very raw at the moment, Carole.

    I remember times when one would forget and so look round to "mind the cat" when in the kitchen or wherever they would usually be winding in and out your legs! It's so poignant. Hang in there

    Prayers and hugs from me to you x

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  11. Just popped back over - what Daisy said is just perfect. I also smiled at Spitty's comment on Admiral's blog. Bacons on a Sunday?
    Simba's Mom

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  12. You must have been dreaming of your little Admiral, and thought she was still here. Have a great week. Don't be too sad.

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  13. They creep into your heart and it leaves a big hole when they're gone. She was such sweet thing and though time will help, she will always be with you in your heart and mind. Love and Hugs1

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  14. A vacancy arrives and will only shrink with time but the memories will always be there.

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  15. It's all those little things that keep creeping back - just exactly what you explained. That too will fade in time. In the meantime know you have special friends around you who know exactly what you are going thru. Love and prayers dear friend.

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  16. I like what Daisy said and just know that tears are still flowing. It's difficult when a friend is suffering and you are still in my prayers. I thought of you on FB, but I've not been able to get back on. I hope you have a peaceful night, Carole.

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  17. It is very hard to get over the loss of a pet, especially one that you've had for a long time. We got a dog when I was 5 years old, and had him until I was 18 when he died. It still seems like he was part of the family back then.

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  18. I so do understand how you feel and you will feel that way for sometime. When our last dog passed on I was devastated. The only thing that helped was a few days later some friends asked if we could care for their puppy for a few days. It was a God send for me. Just to have the puppy to keep my mind of my loss for even a couple days. Puppies and kittens can have that effect. In all my life of animals I had always had a new one before the old passed, it had always made it easier. The last dog I didn't and that leaves a big empty place. I have thought I lost Wildflower so many times in her 15 years and grieved over her many of those times only to have her come back. It really scares me when she may actually be gone. I don't know if I could love an other animal again especially having one so long and had been with me during so many ups and downs. One never knows till one is there. The memory will always be there but the pain will fade in time. Wish I could give you a real hug and just have a good cry with you. Just let the tears flow.

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  19. I can relate to what you are going through Carole. I am sorry to hear this. We will all miss the Admiral.

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  20. My heart aches for you and the loss of your sweet girl. I continue to keep you in my thoughts and to send you healing energy.

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  21. So many of us loved LB so very much. Your sharing her life with me was a blessing Carole that I hold dear and will never forget. Thank you .
    In moments of feeling broken keep your faith strong, know that we walk with you and feel your pain . Hold on to the moments of love and when you reach out for her.. well I have to stop here.
    Much Love always
    Lisa xo

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  22. Dear friend, I can so relate to this. His name was Max..it hurt for a long time. You have all the wonderful memories plus knowing you gave her a good home with lots of love. Thinking of you often. [[hugs]]

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  23. I know exactly what you mean. When Looppy (my first house rabbit) was still alive, I would look for her favourite herbs at the supermarket. After she passed, I couldn't walk past the vegetables section (where the herbs are) without crying. I still think of her when I see basil (and she passed away in 2002) but today, it brings back happy memories we had together. I think of you and Admiral everytime I look at Boomie...and that's very often. Sending you lots of hugs, Carole.

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  24. There isn't much I can say that hasn't already been said. Just know you're not alone. Love n Hugs!

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  25. Carole, I'm sorry I haven't been around sooner. As you know, I know all too well what it is to lose a treasured member of the family and you, along with the rest of our Spaces family were such a comfort when lost Sam. His photo is still the wallpaper on my phone and I still choke up when I go through the old albums and come across a special shot of him. Frankie and I both still call his name from time to time when we're talking to Buddy or Molly.

    God truly blessed us with some fine companions, didn't he? I take comfort from all the days we had together and in knowing that he's in a far better place. I'll bet the admiral is keeping him on his toes!

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  26. My condolences to you on your recent loss. It is very tough to lose a member of the family as you just did.
    However, we need to take comfort in knowing that the love and memories will stay with you as they did with the departed.

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  27. Hi Admiral's Mommy. I wanted to tell you that after Nicky passed, TW couldn't even cry. She'd cried enough for Autumn who went OTRB about 10 days earlier & the tears wouldn't come for Nicky who was her pet. About a week later, she came home from work, looked at the stuffie HHGutt and bawled her eyes out. Long, loud wails. I hope you start feeling better soon cos Admiral is looking down and you don't want to make her sad.

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